Hope
Finding peace in yourself and those around you, actively looking for the beauty in life even when times are tough. There is good everywhere, you just have to be willing to accept it.
Scared and Strong
I'm not strong, I'm scared
I'm afraid of repeating the patterns
That scarred me into submission,
That taught me these warnings.
What you may see as strength,
To be able to walk away,
I see as caution,
Protecting my vulnerability
To stop my own temptations of
What If’s and Maybe Not’s
I will not be stepped on
I will not believe myself to be ignorant
I will protect my heart
I will protect my sanity
So if you are only going to offer
Simply spoken promises,
Best believe I am wiser than that,
To believe things I cannot see
The change I cannot feel.
If you think me so small,
You may be right
But that was a different time
A different me
So though I am weak,
It has made me strong
Scared of possibilities that cut me
To test the worthiness of pursuers.
Overflow
It’s days like these
When I am tired, worn, and drained
From play, laughter, and fun
That my heart feels so full
Of each any every emotion
That comes with love;
It makes me wonder how I ever thought
Living was boring and dull
When there existed people
Who radiated life themselves.
My heart was made to love
But it never prepared itself
For the abundant amount
That comes from the overflow
Of emotional gratitude;
Appreciating these people,
Absorbing these moments,
Allowing this peace
Where there is not a single doubt
Not an ounce of dread
Of feeling like I don’t belong
Because how could my heart
Swell with so much love
And fill me with so much life
If I wasn’t where I was meant to be.
To Be Here
It’s astonishing to me
To see how far I’ve come
When years ago
I thought the end was near.
The past still lingers
As lines decorate my hips,
But there is a great sense of pride
Of accomplishment
Of overwhelming victory
That I am here
That I am accepting of love
That I actively look for beauty.
How tragic it would have been
Had I not got to see
What lies beyond the broken.
The World Has Mercy
It’s beautiful to think
I am sharing the same timeline
Of the most wonderful people
I will ever meet
That fate chose
To put these people
In my path of discovery
People so similar to me
Yet so different
Meeting by chance
And loving by choice
I am forever grateful
To whatever force
Has shown mercy
To give me
Walking sunshine
And colorful skies
After gloomy days
Somehow, Someway
When it appears
The world is set against me,
I break, I crumble, I cry,
I let it see the damage its done
And then I defy it
I curse it
I do what a strong person does
I take the dark thoughts
And rationalize them
I grab at what's left
And use it to its fullest
And somehow
Someway
The strength becomes me