Scared and Strong

I'm not strong, I'm scared 

I'm afraid of repeating the patterns 

That scarred me into submission,

That taught me these warnings.

What you may see as strength,

To be able to walk away,

I see as caution,

Protecting my vulnerability 

To stop my own temptations of 

What If’s and Maybe Not’s

I will not be stepped on 

I will not believe myself to be ignorant 

I will protect my heart 

I will protect my sanity

So if you are only going to offer 

Simply spoken promises,

Best believe I am wiser than that,

To believe things I cannot see

The change I cannot feel.

If you think me so small, 

You may be right

But that was a different time 

A different me

So though I am weak,

It has made me strong 

Scared of possibilities that cut me 

To test the worthiness of pursuers.